The author reflects on a high school experience where she stood up for herself, then later forgot her strength. Recently, she realized she was placing herself at the mercy of various struggles. Remembering God’s mercy and love, she finds confidence and freedom, embracing her identity as a daughter of God. The passage from Mark exemplifies the power of seeking mercy from Jesus. … More Have Mercy on Me
For three and a half months I felt like a balloon had swelled in my belly. Sometimes, sharp jolts would move through my colon and fold me over, my breath catching in my throat and my eyes widening in pain. It was the dead of summer in California’s Central Valley where temps often reach well … More The Fear of the Lord is the Beginning of Freedom
The story of Leah, often overshadowed by her sister Rachel, portrays a neglected and weary woman finding solace in the God who saw and heard her. Despite societal disgrace and personal injustice, Leah’s life ultimately shaped the lineage of the Messiah. Her untold suffering resonates across centuries, showcasing God’s ability to bring beauty from ashes. … More A Poem: Weary Girl
The concept of a “calling” has raised doubts for many, including those with religious backgrounds. Feeling paralyzed by the pressure to discern God’s will, they question its association with personal aspirations. Perhaps, they ponder, one’s “calling” and God’s will could simply involve becoming Christ-like. Embracing this idea may lead to a more fulfilling approach to faith and vocation. … More “I Found My Calling!” — Or Maybe Not
I tried to put the key in my head to unlock the life I long for. Then someone told me it doesn’t go there but goes right in the middle of my sternum where my heart lives alongside the life of a little girl who used to be curious full of adventure and fearless as … More A Poem: Whole
When I was a little girl and we lived in the Pacific Northwest, my birthday always landed during the state fair. The fairgrounds, which were huge and magical and full of classic autumn nostalgia as the all-day crisp air and orange-tinted sunshine gently whipped the smell of farm animals and candy apples and the music … More What I Know for Certain
In my journey of deconstructing my faith and rebuilding it around Christ and historical orthodoxy, I’ve also noticed that there are many in the Christian faith who resist the word or experience of “deconstruction” because of people on the internet who have become anti-God and anti-Christian in their deconstruction. I would argue that, while understandable, … More A Starter Kit to Rebuild Your Faith
The following post is the final part of a series describing my story of deconstructing my Christian faith and reconstructing it within orthodoxy rather than choosing to deconvert. Make sure to read up on Part 1 and Part 2 before moving on! Where Else Would I Go? There’s a song by John Mark Pantana that goes like this: … More Deconstruction: your faith has saved you, Part 3
The following post is part of a series describing my story of deconstructing my Christian faith and reconstructing it within orthodoxy rather than choosing to deconvert. Make sure to read up on Part 1 before moving on! In January 2019, as I was sitting in the quiet and writing in my journal, an image came … More Deconstruction: self-exposure, Part 2
The following post is part of a series describing my story of deconstructing my Christian faith and reconstructing it within orthodoxy rather than choosing to deconvert. What is “Deconstruction”? Deconstruction is a hot term floating around Christian circles right now and feels amplified because social media, big-name pastors, Christian leaders, and docuseries like “Shiny Happy … More Deconstruction: the struggle with God, Part 1